widad's.

2009-11-06T02:24:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I'm not who you think I am.

Not smart,
Not beautiful,
Not funny,
Not talkative,
I don't tell good stories,
I complain too much,
I get whiny,
I'm annoying,
I'm noisy, (not in a good way)
I'm ugly,
I'm insensitive to other ppl's feelings,
I cry too much,
I get pmssy all the time,
I'm not hot enough,
I'm too skinny,
I'm not perfect,
I curse too much,
I'm rude,
I'm not rich,
I spend unnecessarily,
I boss around,
I'm a lazy pig,
I don't smell nice all the time,
I have lots of negative 'energy',
I lie,
I don't believe you.

I'm just telling the truth.
How I feel about myself.
Oh.. and the list continues..

2009-10-04T04:10:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

I have moved.
And if your lucky, you'll find me :)
I'll try updating this.
But I might not.. you know?
Booms you know?
HAHA

k crap.

I feel like getting married.

2009-08-10T15:25:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

My emotions are all jumbled up.
I feel so many emotions at once.. I feel nothing..

Sigh.

Ugh. I have 3 more days to pay back. I better not get my period.

2009-08-10T15:10:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

I was pissed on Friday..
CAUSE..
MY MOM WENT TO KL WITH MY BRO AND SISTER
WHICH = ME AND MY SISTER ONLY AT HOME
CAUSE MY DAD IS WORKING @ NIGHT

AND I WAS WAITING FOR MOMAD TO CALL ME AGAIN!
AND HE DIDNT CALL LA!
BLOODY HELL!

CAN GO BACK LATE YOU KNOW!
LIKE GRRRRRR
PISSED SIA

But on Friday afternoon.. Met Soleha , S.Nadiah and Dinie :D:D

Okay so then on Saturday..
went out in the afternoon..
visited my paternal baba.. then to city hall.. to get e remaining of Farah's presents.
Rushed home.. off to meet Atiqah then to Farah's chalet. (pictures are on FB)
Fun.. got to catch up with some people
and learned how to play the starting of "stand by me" on the guitar :D

The yesterday.. OMG I WAS SOOO ROTTING AT HOME!
And got pissed for no apparent reason..
And a kind kind soul saved me :D

I haven shower :P and Fadhil asked me to get down in 5 mins -.-
I CHIONG LIKE MAD LA.. cause I thought he was kidding.
Obviously I didn't go down in 5 mins :P

We went all over.. driving back and forth. Waste petrol only.
Lastly reached PP.. and we pool-ed.
Reached home at 1. hehehe.

I was a happy goober because I was rotting at home..
and I got to go out :D
(macam kesian eh.. no life gitu..)

Okay dah.
I want to meet my muthu sammy.. but my mummy ask me to stay at home :(
nvm.. THERE IS ALWAYS TOMORROW :D

2009-08-01T17:13:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

WOW FOR THE FIRST FRIDAY IN AGES
I HAVE A FRIGGIN LIFE!!!

Met Atiqah and Uzair at Bugis right after French Exam (which I totally screwed btw)
Off to Deli Moroccan for dinner. (yummylicious)
Gossips here and there..

Uzair surprised both of us with presents!
8 D

So momad called me and asked us to join him and his cousin Farah..
and we did.. then Nabil, Fadhil and Farhan joined us.

Then I got high. And got disturbed by the evil forces.
and then I felt dizzy and ringing and body shaking.
waited like million light years for the ice water to come..
and when it finally did..I drank like an idiot.
HAHAHAH

Okay then went off cause by the time it was 1230
and my mom gave me a scolding at 11+
Went to the main rd to get a cab..

Nabil called and asked if we wanted a ride.
Okay LORRRR
Gedebak gedebuk send this person, that person
got some petrol..
i reached home at 140!!!!!!
LLIKE OMGGG THATS LIKE THE LATEST I HAVE BEEN OUT WITH FRIENDS!!!!
WTFFF. Widad needs a spanking from the mother.

Had a car race and it was friggin scary okay!

Thank you fadewww :)

Dah lah.. wait for another update about my oh so 'wonderful' life!

2009-07-24T17:35:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

French in 25 mins.
Im dead bored.
I have no life as usual.
Going home after french.

This wk is the last French lesson.
Next week Exam.. then I will have to decide whether to continue French 02
for next sem. Hmm should I?

2009-07-20T12:54:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

What's happening?
Is this for real?
Or we both just playing along.

Don't confuse me.
I'll end up hurting myself.

But if you want me to play along..
I might.
I'm already in the game..that you always win.

How I wish it was not a game.
How I wish you would tell me that your being true.

But a girl can tell..

2009-07-17T02:42:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

Sometimes, this heart aches.
Sometimes, its difficult to breathe
Sometimes, I hate knowing you.
Sometimes, I miss you.

2009-07-16T01:42:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

my sister is coming back!
OMG!
OMG!
OMGGG!!!

Its almost 2 and I'm not asleep.
Surprise surprise.

K i better go soon (yeahh right!)
So we canG goz fetch herz :D

even though class starts at 9 and she lands at 725 -.-

2009-07-13T18:32:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

WOOHOO YEEHOO
If I could escape..

2009-07-10T17:24:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

Here I am waiting for french to start.
Homework half done..
Its difficult you know!

And I'm bored.
I want to go out after french.
Its like friggin Friday night!

Who stays at home sia.
and the answer to that is ME!

:(

And I'm dead hungry.
Maghrib is in a few hours. Can sustain.
Jia Yo!? (err i dunno how to spell)

But where to break fast eh?
Hmm..

OH AND I HAD THE MOST CHALAT DAY EVER MAN!
Like just now ah. SUPER BAD LUCK!

2009-07-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I swear the moon is so breath taking.
Masyallah.

I was literally was looking at it from
junction of TM till i reached my lift landing.
I think a man thought I was crazy
cause I was like looking up all the way.
HAHA.

Its so white, so bright, so round, so beautiful, so near yet so far just like you.

2009-07-06T12:18:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I feel like blogging.
But I just don't know what to say.

Well, just so you know.
Life sucks. Yet its so beautiful when you have all the wonderful
people in your life.

Tons of assignments
and what nots.

Youth Day and I'm in friggin school.
Aren't Youths till the age of 24 or was it 35?
wiki says 24.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Youth

Well, if your not on Facebook or Twitter..
too bad. MUAHHAH

I update more there.
so yeah.

Till then.

2009-07-02T16:57:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

THIS BLOG IS DEAD!
MUAHHAHAHAH

Well I'm all alone now.. waiting for Skate to start
-.-

And my phone has been awfully quiet.
Sad.

And if you have not known, I created a group in facebook
JOIN IT!
WOOOHOOOO!!!

Called : I do not wish to know who view my profile!

:D

And I miss Sam and Sum.
Especially Sam cause of what happened and not.. so sad..

and obviously I miss all you secondary school friends!!

I need to laugh and have a awesome like chiz of chizzles kinda day.
And I'm sleep deprived. Partly cause I choose to be.

Laptop, I love you.

2009-06-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I am sorry for I have abandoned you.
But don't worry I won't erase you.
I'm always on Facebook or Twitter for updates.

:D

Oh and I had fun on my birthday :)
Thanks to all that met me, wished me, went out with me :D
Pictures are of course on Facebook :D

2009-06-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

Brother sebok sia
sleep my room
steal air-con.

then ask me to sleep
bagedel.

-.-

2009-06-18T11:08:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

ZenStone died on me AGAIN!

R.I.P Zenstone.

We had fun together.

2009-06-12T19:50:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

WOW! FRIGGGIN FRIDAY NIGHT AND IM AT HOME!
I SO HAVE A LIFE MAN!
YES I DO!

IM GOING TO EMO AT STARFUCKS!
WOOHHOOO

Okay so I'll be busy the for the holidays.
Sigh.

13th- Skate Camp
14th -Skate Camp
15th -Skate Camp
16th -Project in the morn till afternoon ( prolly)
17th -Project in the morn till afternoon ( prolly)
18th -Project in the morn till afternoon; Henna/Ladies night in the evening
19th -REST :D
20th-Wedding
21st-
22nd-Project in the morn till afternoon (prolly)
23rd-Project (prolly)
24th-Project
25th-
26th-
27th-
28th-

END OF HOLIDAYS! AAAHHHH!!!!!
I NEED MY REST LA!
WAHLAUWAY!!! So book me early early eh! CHEYY MACAM PAHAM!
NO ONE WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU LA FAGGOT!

Widad stop complaining and talking to yourself. See see your talking to yourself again. SHHH. okay shut up. okay stop.

Omigod if only there were a kind soul who could send me to school tomorrow *angelic face*

(kecoh sia with bag, skates and sleeping bag take the train!)

Anyone? *angelic face*

2009-06-12T15:31:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Piss and Chip OFF
Because :

I JUST HAD TO GET MY MONTHLY MAGAZINE (if youknow you know)
LIKE ONE DAY BEFORE CAMP!

And there is something really wrong with my laptop and i am soooo
PISS I TELL YOU!
PISS!

You see the year started real good
im hoping it will stay that way
but that's life right?

Like a rollercoaster. Ups and Downs.

Sigh.

So off to skate camp 3D2N
till monday.
hope that it will be fun

Don't miss me :P

Till then suckasssss

UGGH I NEED STARBUCKS!

2009-06-10T00:15:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

I HAVE BEEN TRICKED!
FADHIL YOU SUCK!

AAASSSSHOOOLLLEEEE

STEEWWWPIDDDDDDHHHH BOYYYYYYY!!!!!!

2009-06-09T18:21:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

happy cause I have no school tmr
I bought lenses
I will end at 1 on thursday
I have no school on friday
i.e I START HOLIDAY OFFICIALLY AT 1PM ON THURSDAY :D

2009-06-07T22:19:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Widad GO STUDYY LA STEEWWPIDHHH GURRLLLLL
YOU WANT TO FAIL YOUR FIRST TEST IS IT?!
JUST GO AND STUDY LAAAAAA
AND YOU BETTER WAKE UP AND BE IN SCHOOL AT 9 AM SHARP
TOMORROW!
TSK!

NOOOO I DONT WANT TO STUDYYYY
IM LAZYYYYYYYYYYYY
FAIL FAIL LA! FIRST TEST ONLY WHAT. 25 % ONLY!
AND OKAY I WILL TRY TO BE IN SCHOOL AT 9!
:D

WHATTT!!??? YOU BETTER STUDY AFTER THIS POST
THEN YOU GO AND GET READY FOR SCHOOL THEN FOR BED!
DONT SLEEP LATE TODAY OKAY! SO YOU CAN BE ON TIME!
AND BLOODY HELL! 25% IS FARRRKING ALOT OKAY!

okay i shall study,
and i shall be in school at 9 tmr

I
Want
You. (cheeyyyyyy macam reall.. padehal takde orang -.-)
I
Want
Popeyes
Now!

2009-06-07T19:41:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

I realised that I have made an achievement.

So far this year I have only watched 5 movies.
AH-MAY-ZING!

I remember when I was in sec 2..
almost every wk will watch
okay for more accurate statement..
One month at least 1 movie.

WOW! LOOK AT THE AMOUNT OF MONEY I WASTED
WHOA!

This just goes to show that Widad binThalib has matured a little
*cheer/kallang wave/roller-coaster high five*

See! I deserve a pat on the head.
*pats*

And now, I feel like going to the movies -.-

2009-06-07T01:40:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

French test was.. umm.. I dunno.
HAHA

So went to study with mya just now.
okay actually I did notes mostly
and tried to absorb whatever I could.

Later on.. Baem and Yusuf joined us..
ate and talked..

Then made our way home..
met atijah at starfucks tamp :D

and Toto came to sebok *glares*

Went home and reached at 1230.
I soo walked damnn fast la.
I was friggin sweating.

K BYE

وماذا لو كان شخص آخر حصل على حبك

- And what if someone else got your love?

2009-06-05T01:35:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Omigod! French test in a couple of hours!
dfjdhfladjfalkdf;asd,fs

DIEEEEEE

Skating was.. TIRING

I need a break. real soon.
I can't wait for the day where i sleep in all day and don't wake up
till the evening.

WOW that would be like the chiz of the chizzles ahh.

K I better sleep.
Someone has been late every single fucking day of the week.

:D

Somebody gonna get a hurt realll baddd... somebody.. i dunno who is it.. but i think you know her well..

LOL
LAUGH WITH ME PPL!

2009-06-03T00:49:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Woah. Im sleepy already.
And its only friggin 1250.
ah-may-zing.

Like this is damn early okay!
Seriously.

Okay no school today cause STB class is split into 2.
Im taking it next week.
Mmm.. scary.

Needed to study
so i went out and met dinie.
Off to mac's and we studied
got shoo-ed off (whatthahell cannot study at mac -.-)
To starfucks and then soon got shoo-ed also cause they were closing.

And I'm so screwed.
I have not finished on the ppt.
DIEDIEDIE.

BYE!

2009-06-02T00:03:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

To my dearest sumaiyah,

YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU ;D

MUAHHHHH!
HEHE.

LOVE YOU BABY!

2009-06-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

How awesome.
Both Mihah and Fadhil
the two idiots that i talk most to online
are both away.

Sigh.
One go some stupid camp. (k fine not stupid)
One go Dubai.

I can survive. I know it.

Nothing new : I was late for lecture.
And i had no seat. (how awesome)
and I sat on the floor :D

I woke up at 745 and took my time to get ready
cause i was still in a daze.

so many assignments. sighhhhh.
Later.

(OH FACEBOOK IS A BIGBIG DEVIL!)

2009-06-01T00:44:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Exam was okay.
Went back to my grams 2 hrs later then i usually come back.
cause you know madrasah exam always extend the time one. like "ustaz 5 mins!"
till like 1/2 an hr!

WOOHHH!

k my sister is back.
I got two hoodies :D:D:D

Me likey likey!

schoooooolllll in a few hours.
ugghh boring.
damn what to wear! (everyday problem sia!)

DANG FLABBIT!

2009-05-31T01:12:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

madrasah exam tmr
and end of e-learning wk

sucks man

tests in 2 wks
and french test next friday (gasp! scaryyyy)

uggh damn busy
some ppl start holidays already

so good
and my sistels coming back in couple of hours!
and the room is messy :D

why i type so weird ah?!

life is unfair ah.
really.

sigh.
bye la.

2009-05-28T11:56:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Currently at starfucks plaza sing with my groupmates
Sigh.

I CANNOT GO INTO COTTON ON BODY AH!
TOOO MANY THINGS I WANT THERE
LIKE SHAIIITOOOONNNNIIIIIROOJJIMMMMMM

Boxers,pants (they look damnnn comfortable), peejayyss, the shoe thingy you use at home,
the socks, the blindfold thingy.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
GSdhsufhjhdjgjlhfdghhjdghurfhgfjkggksfgdslkfd

: (

k bye.

2009-05-26T23:51:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

500th Post.

No one will understand how I feel.
Even I don't understand myself.

I have changed and I don't like it.
Sigh.

2009-05-26T22:06:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Ohmygaahhh
I'm going to be damn busyy....
ugghhhh

Okay this wk is E-learning = No school
But I'm going back to school tmr, Thurs and Friday -.-
Project, S&W, Skating , French.

Sigh.
OH OH! I bought my skates :D:D
Getting them on Thurs.

So next week school as per normal but will CONFIRM PLUS CHOP busy with
all the stupid friggin assignments!!

So term break start on the 13th June.
13- 15th Skate Camp :) [Hope it will be fun]
Then all the dance practice for friend 's wedding
And 18th is her Henna night
19th A BREAK AT LAST! (sleeping in the whole damn man!)
20th Her wedding

Ahh and I dunno whats the plan yet.. but I have this feeling that I will
be busy with all the stupid assignmentssss

So term break = No break
Bodoh/khabal/stupid/pentan/jahil

fhjlsjhglskdjflksdjfskdjfghufgkofiadk;fja;f

:D

Ciao people

2009-05-24T01:26:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

Oh my.
What have I done.
Damn it widad. why can't you just make ppl happy.
UGHHH
I HATE MYSELF

SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME. METALLY PHSICALLY WRONG.

Your such a retard.

2009-05-23T22:46:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Sometimes.. life can really be a pile of shit.
And I should stop complaining. :D

I miss my friends..
I miss you you you you you especially you.

MUAH THIS IS FOR EVERYONE.
EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!

2009-05-16T02:51:00.010+08:00

Dear Diary,

Here is what I have been up to

And I have been having lots of long "naps"
HAHA

And I dreamt that today is hari raya
and i didn't have any clothes
then i didnt want to wake up
cause i scared my mom scold.

HAHA.

School is getting a tad stressful.

alrighty i should get going.
Au revoir!

2009-05-13T08:08:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Many things have happened in my life
but its just too many.

Well lets just recall yesterday

-Attachment
-Damn sleepy
-Cause i ***** the night before
-Slept at the centre for a while
-Damn shiok

-Got a lift from Aisha's Parents
-Lunched with her

-Speech training class
-Met up with Sam,Dew,Shida to go home
-Sam listened to all my problems
-Dew listened to iPod.

-Met many ppl along the way
-Ate Milo McFlurry (eh damn nice sia. but damn expensive)

-Helped Mun with cheesecake
-Gave up halfway
-On the lappy
-Lie down and put the lappy on my lap (DUH)

Next thing I know it was 7.30 am
HAHAHAHHAAHHAHAH
Awesome.
I had a wonderful NAP

I think I shall continue now.
Au Revoir!

2009-05-10T01:50:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

AHHHH I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY!
COMPLAIN AND COMMENT
GET EXCITED ABOUT

UGHHHH BUT I HAVE TOO MUCH TO SAY
MAYBE ILL JUST DELETE THIS PIECE SHIT ASS
OF A BLOG THAT ONLY WIDAD READS.

OR MAYBE ONLY FOR MYSELF.
MAYBE.

GO AWAY
BACK OFF.

OKAY IM WEIRD.
IM HAPPY TOO.
OKAY I DUNNO LA.
BYE.

2009-05-03T23:02:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

My blog is dead.
My tagboard is dead.

I dunno what to study
I'm too lazy to study
I'm still a little in holiday mode.

I feel so stone-ish
Do you feel that way too?

Its always better when were together
Better Together- Jack Johnson

2009-05-03T01:31:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Was supposed to meet atiqah and uzair just now..
but cancelled.
so sad.

NVM we meet next week okay?

Friday :
-kafafokay!
-back to jassamat (haha!)
- al-wehdah movie night
- restaurant near masjid kassim
- weirdo internet at jassamat
-lights off

Saturday :
-Nasi Goreng
-Dentist
-Jassamat
-Haig Road
-Ahmad (kecik's) Party
-After Party
- Hang out with Sam,Mya,Mazeed,Hul and Fadhil
-Fadhil fetched
- Parkway
-McCafe
-Till late
-Fadhil sent us home
-Back at 12

Wah i was so damn stupid la.
Haha. I gave a bad lie.
HAHA

okay but i told a wee bit part of the truth after that.
HAHA im sucha tard.
and my friends and families are all weirdos.

:D

Ps I miss all your secondary school friends. A lot.

2009-04-30T13:06:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

These past few days..
I HAVE BEEN SMILING TO MY PHONE
SMILING TO MYSELF

HAHA
cause people sms me all sort of things and its funny!

I don't really care if people look at me all weird.
I'm relatively happy :D

Heh.
BUT JUST NOW I WAS DAMN LATE
AND
i friggin cried cause my family is kinda useless!

I woke up at 730 when class starts at 9
and 730 is the time im supposed to go out. -.-

today was the fastest i got ready.
like chiong giler.

okay im supposed to do school work.
ciao.

2009-04-27T00:12:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Still feeling i dunno what.
But definately much better.

Yay! I bought jeans and shoes :D
But I feel guilty cause I have been spending a lot.
Due to shopping on friday morning..
I was late meeting Fadhil to school.

Wah then scold scold (BABI!)
But who end up being late for class?
ME NOT HIM LA! BLADI HELL ( okay fine its my fault.)

I have French on Friday evenings from 6-8 :D
kaay the :D is not appropriate.
But I'm happy cause I have French. :D

Okay so then..
Saturday was awesome possome. It was the chiz la.

School in the morning with Khai.
We laughed alot. Basically I was high cause I didn't have enough sleep.
Then gedebak gedebuk.
Home and rushed the packing.

Off to Raffles Place and checked into Fullerton.
WOOHOO!

My sister took a shower and met her friends.
I was alone in the room la and had a soak in the tub:D
Relaxing and fun with the bubbles and all.

Soon mihah and mya came and the camera started snapping away,
while the music was on and such.

FF
.................
Surprised Radhiyah with a cake
Off to Marina Sq Swensens for dinner :)
Back to the hotel where like everyone was there.
Hung out for a bit then the rest went home.

Left Me, Sistels, Mihah and Mya.
I was very gatal and wanted to still go out.
So me and mihah went to buy stuff from
SELEVEN (HAH!)

Then sadly Mya wanted to go home cause she was sick.

AND NO BLOODY PERSON COULD ACTUALLY COME DOWN TO CLARKE QUAY
TO ENTERTAIN ME AND MIHAH LA!
BLOODY HELL!

Okay but we had fun. With all the cheering for the goals.
and the usual Pis and Cip talk.
HAH! (omg reminds me I miss Uzair! okay I Miss ALL OF MY FRIENDS!)

Okay got back and slept at 3! (wahlau I have madrasah the next morning okay!)
Woke up at 8.
I left fullerton at 9 (when madrasah starts at 9 -.-)
HAHA.

I had fun :D

Sunday after madrasah wahhhh fucking sleepy the whole day la.
But went to Illuma to catch 17 Again
(it was actually GOOD! and zac's acting was good! and what made it better was that
a cutie/hottie was sitting beside me. heh)

And i bought shades:D:D:D
wootswoots.
OKAY ITS LIKE 1 AM AND IM FRIGGIN SLEEPY.
AND I STILL HAVEN DECIDE ON WHAT TO WEAR
AND THERE ARE A PILE OF CLOTHES FROM THE WASH ON MY BED
AND I HAVEN FOLD THEM!
AAAHHHH!!

(The only downside to my weekend was that : I didn't have enough sleep, no body came for
my midnight getaway, I had to pay bloody 9.50 for the movie ( I hate watching on the weekends) and it was hot! )

BUT I HAD AN AWESOME TIME :D
YAY!

okay school.
okay bye.

2009-04-24T00:11:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I feel _________.
A lot of mixed emotions.

Many things have happened I guess.

Happy cause my classmates are sorta an awesome bunch.
But I'm always those kind who don't really like to hurt people
so I don't exactly joke like REALLY JOKE like how I used to.

Then when i remember bout how I used to joke..
I start missing my friends.
So sad.

So many things to complain about NP.
Wake up early at 630.
Out by 730.
sucks man.

And there are friggin mountains at my school la! (haha actually hill ah)
Its soo tiring going up there.

And something else happened which I dont wish to talk about.
And I feel sad about it.

I hope the weekend will be awesome.
Praying hard. Having a staycation :D
Shopping for some stuff tomorrow maybe (another happy thing)
But I'm still sad.

You never know when you lose a friend. Have I lost you?
______________________________________
A poem I wrote (okay its not that good -.-)

To act like you don't care
When deep down you do.
To know that that someone doesn't like you.
You try to forget but you just can't seem to let go.
Soon enough you will and you know.

Cause time heals all wounds.

Ooo'kek.
Goodnight.

2009-04-22T00:29:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

School was supposed to start at 9
but got an text saying it was canGcelled (haha!)

So I slept at 3 am and woke at 1040++
And I was happy cause I got recharged.
I was almost late for class.

1. I went out 5 mins late
2. The bus was so slow. Like every bustop had a passenger alighting/boarding
3. I couldn't find the class.

Hee So after class..
I went called Khairul and he said his classes ended at 5
which was an hour later and I wanted to sign up for CCA with him
but I had to wait.
So I did.

Aaahh but this is where it got better.

I was walking out of School of Humans building
and was looking blurr and didn't know where to go
( cause I still dunno where the hang out places are)

and JENGJENGJENG
I see Atiqah!
WOOH!
I screamed la what else. I was damn shocked man.
Then I touched her to make sure I wasn't hallucinating.

HAHAHAH
She knew the school better than me okay! And its her first time ever there -.-
HAHA.

So we roamed around the convention centre where there was CCA fiesta
and then we talked at some place (which atiqah told me about -.-)

GedebakGedebuk..
Khai and me joined Inline Skating (LOL)

Its like there is a trial and for the first 4 wks
so then if you really like it then you buy your own skates.

Okay I'm beat.
Goodnight.

2009-04-20T23:52:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

School was okay I guess.
I know most of my classmates names.
But they are all so confusing.
Its like half of them have names starting with Sha/Shi/Che
OR something like that.

Class ended at 1 and I went to roam around for a while.
All alone :(
I haven't exactly made friends.
But I guess its okay cause it is only the first day of school.

So I was sooooo bored on the way home
But soon I got the company from sms-es from Ambs,Roshan,Haggar(haha!),Handal(haha!),Nadiah and Atiqah.
I swear I wanted to just LAUGH OUT LOUD.
And I think people think that I'm weird cause
I was smiling to myself.

Yesterday Night also was funny chatting with ppl like
Jimmy,Khairul,Fadhil (wth dress sexy)
I friggin slept at 1.11
partly cause I could'nt sleep and Jimmy was telling me bout Ice-cream cake! HAHAHA!

Okay this is what I hope to acheieve:

Have Fun during these three years in poly.
To not regret any decisions.
To make more wonderful friends
To study very hard
To get good results
To hopefully get into a good Uni/College
To make wonderful memories not only for school but for life for me to carry on
to tell my grandchildren about (cheyy)

Okay.
Wishin' all of you the best of luck for your future endervours.
Don't forget me ah!

Tell me the truth.
Do I annoy you?
Do I repulse you?
Do I make you feel like omgg why is she talking to me?

2009-04-19T01:22:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

My oh my.
I'm glad that Matt was saved.

I stayed home all day thursday.
( Say WHAAAAAAAATT!?!?!?!??!?!)

Okay Friday went to meet
: Fadhil and friend (faisal?)
Okay then friend went back.
Mihah and Mya joined.

Woohh then we karaoke-d at grandlink
for like an hour -.-
hahaha.

Off to the hospital to visit a relative.
and then decided to sleep over byy's ( hahah) house.

Oh and I was like damn lethargic or something.
like i really wanted to be out.
But oh well its okay.

ITS LIKE LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAYS!

okay so.
Next day (i.e today/just now/ alah senang kan Friday -.-)
woke up like damn early when we slept late.

Okay Arab St.
Helped out a little. (more like buat sibuk)
Pizza Hut delivery :D
Marina Square Starbucks.
Dinner @ Foodcourt.

Fadhil punyer beylo pukul 9 baru bilang nak datang -.-
He said he took taxi but pay only $10 (wth should be at least $13)
When in fact he drove -.-

Okay gedebak gedebuk laugh here laugh there.
Home sweet home. ( It was a scary ride 1- I was scared that ppl see
2- Speeding nak mampos. )

Okay i just got my last warning from bro.
babi.
goodnight

2009-04-16T00:02:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I feel quite talkative today.
But I can't put my words in proper sentences cause I'm thinking too much.
But I am still stupid.

For Twilight Readers :

Have you ever wondered if Bella gets her period?
HAHAH.
LIKE EDWARD CONFIRM CAN SMELL RIGHT?

see I'm thinking too much.

Okay and oreintation was
dotsdotsdots

I made only like ONE friend.
How pathetic.
But its okay.
But she's not from the same course.

-.-

And I was at Orchard Rd, Plaza Singapura all alone
carrying the stupidly heavy laptop.

And Omar and Mummy fetched me :D
and off to SimLim to get my laptop sleeve.
Awesomeness!

Have I mentioned that I REALLY WANT TO DRIVE?
I think those who know me well are going crazy hearing me say it
OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER ( okay tired)

I had Spageddies for dinner :)

American Idol Talk :

Allison - Good.
Anoop - was the chiz
Adam - Boleh tahan
Kris - Nice but a little bit forgetable ( shit!)
Danny - Nice but he is so been there done that a little
Matt - I agree with the judges the song itself is already awesome he should not have changed it too much.
Lil Rounds - Okay only.

Okay I got nothing more to say (yet)

I'll be the hunter, but boy, you better pray
'Cause when I want ya, I'll get you anyway

2009-04-14T23:55:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I hate myself.
Uggghhhh
Really.

Anyways
Sleepover was fun and ___________.
I dont even know what to say.

I really hate myself.

Orientation is tomorrow.
I don't even know what to wear and what time it ends.
I hope not too long cause I want to go to town.
Ugggghhhh

I HATE ME!

2009-04-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

Apparently I made a new friend.
Let see how this works out.

Later.

2009-04-12T18:46:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

The Arab Youth BBQ nite was fun (toothy smile)
Many good looking people (grin from ear to ear)
me included. (cheyyyyy)

I don't know if its just me..
but I'm a little pissed that there is like ANOTHER mall
at Tampines.

Like we don't have enough visitors during the weekend.
Seriously.

So went to the newly open Tampines One to check it out.
Its like we almost brought in Orchard Rd to Tampines.

Every friggin shop is there.
-.-

Tried out the frozen youghurt shop : Frolick (?)
It was the chiz man.

But in the end me and sistels still buy stuff from where??!!
TAMPINES MALL AND CENTURY SQUARE. (see see!)

Some rubber bands, hairclips, rings,shampoo and face shop stuff.
Woots :D

Home and we cooked Mac&Cheese.
Yummee.

Later suckaassss

2009-04-11T01:18:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary,

I need new contact lenses and I want new shades :(
So I tried out the Ray-Ban virtual mirror
and it was fun.

Here are some of the pictures :

hahaa!

Is it just me or this blog's dead?
Oh pishposh.
Doesn't matter anyways.

AhBeng says : Goodnight Goodnight you think what? shopping centre is it?!
Others: Sorry.

2009-04-10T20:26:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I DONT WANT TO READ BREAKING DAWN
I DONT WANT TWILIGHT TO END
:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
IF I FINISH BREAKING DAWN
IT MEANS I HAVE TO GIVE IT BACK TO SOL
AND I DONT WANT TO GIVE IT BACK.

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Sol! your not getting back your books tau :P

2009-04-10T17:32:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

The BBQ was awesome.
Tiring though.
But I had fun indeed.

To those who came..
Thank You
Hope you had good fun and good food :D

I'm bored.
And my school supplies are soo not bought!

2009-04-08T19:23:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I can't believe I'm gonna say this
but
Adam was good. Almost awesome.

His hair was nice.
He looked really cute and handsome.

I think its partly cause he wasn't shouting and all those weird high notes were not
part of the song.
Except when it was.. it worked.

Kris was not as awesome as last week
but I still love him.

And Matt was the chiz man.

I like Allison's performance today cause she rocked it out
not too much. Just nice.

Danny,Anoop was good but others were better.

Scott and Lil was okay only.

This season really has a lot of talents.
Like almost all of them deserve to win.

Wooh I feel high.

2009-04-08T11:57:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I feel very reserved these few days.
Im still not recovered
Went to the docs yesterday and apparently I have gastric.

WHICH SUCKS.

I was feeling awful on Friday
A little better on Saturday
Better on Sunday
Fine on Monday

And BAM! Tuesday it strikes again
(ahhaha I dunno why I'm laughing maybe its the BAM!)

On Monday I was feeling fine I even went out
with Ambs,Meyja (hahaha),Tijah,Timun,Syida,Handal,Handsome(okay lets call him curly or Babi lambat nak mampos)

I was late (as usual)
But I wake up damn early.
Cause I sleep early.

Off to Botanic Gardens
But BAM! It rained ( okay gotta stop it with the BAM!)

Ate at the side like budak kesian
while Handal played the guitar
Tijah and me imagined if someone gave him money
cause all of us have food except for him.
ahhahahaha

Made our way to Esplanade
We took off our shoes!!!! and walked on the flooded bustop!
I went into the bus without slippers!!!

At Esplanade and it was hot.
Hot complain. Rain complain.
Tsktsktsk

Hung out,played games,took pictures.
I certainly had fun.

Okay bbq is like tomorrow!
I hope I feel better.
And whatthahell am I supposed to eat!!!??!!??!?!

jdfnsldhflslkfjdkfsd

12 days till school starts!
ZOMG!

And I don't think I'm ready for school
metally,physically and supplies ( do i make sense? yes)

I think I got French classes!
Yay!

See you guys at the bbq!

2009-04-06T00:42:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Friday ended to be dmfnsdjlhfsjkd
Vomited 5 times @ 9-10pm.
Once more in the car 11-1.

Slept at the sofa
Again @ 2am.
Another time at 4am

I didn't know it would be tiring.

Woke up Saturday morning
had half boiled eggs and vomited it out
as soon as it went in.

I have never vomit so much in my entire life!

And now to top it off I had diarrhoea.
I'm feeling so much better but me thinks ( haha wildchild)
not still fully recovered.

DAMN.

Okay I'm off.
Oh! I got fooled on April's fool
and I didn't even know it.
Thanks AMIRUL!
hahahaha
and I managed to fool Roshan but Faiz didn't fall for it.
Dangflabbjsdhfjhfs.

Gooodnighttt

2009-04-03T15:17:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

Uggh meeting at i dunno what time.
Movie at 340
and i haven even iron my clothes -.-

*transforms into speedy gonzalez*

2009-04-03T02:26:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

So many things
So little time.

I'm starting to LOVE KRIS ALLEN :D
(Ain't no sunshine was like the chiz man!)
and I still hate Adam :P

Ciao.

2009-03-29T23:39:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I sort of celebrated Earth Hour :)
I switched off the lights.
But lappy was on hibernate.
TV was on.
Candles were lit.
(wootswoots)

but my father and sister cheated.
My dad switched on his room lights
to read newspaper -.-
I asked him to switch off
and he then switched on his night lamp.
HAHA

My sister was hungry so she switched on the kitchen lights
to get food -.-

I also kinda cheated cause I had to pee.
So I switched on the toilet lights :P

I was so semangat I went to the balcony
and shouted VOTE EARTH!
hahahahhahaa (I'm weird I know)

Damai Sports day is like on BLOODY THURSDAY!
jjdshfsdjlfksdkfs
I'm so scared for them.
I really it like turns out well
and hopefully we will win overall and cheer leading :D

Okay I so don't know what to say anymore.
But I'm feeling like very chatty.
Maybe I'll blog again.
Maybe

2009-03-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

At last I got the skin changed.
There's something wrong with the yellow one.
I know its plain and boring
but the other skins are just ugly or whack!

Better get going to bed.
(If I do sleep now this would be like one of the earliest I've slept)
And I got to make it a habit and change my sleeping patterns.
For school and its just healthier.

I've officially moved to my laptop now.
Feels different.

Change.
Change Is good.

2009-03-27T23:50:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I don't know what I feel now.
My emotions are all weird these few days.

Maybe I'll just let myself find me again.
then maybe I know what I feel.

I'm a little bummed that Michael is out.
He seems so nice.
And he reminds me of my cousin Aman.. so laid back.
and he can sing what.

But what scared the shit out of me was Matt being in the bottom 3.
And Megan should have been in the bottom 3.
But she's really interesting.

There's something about Danny and Allison that I don't really like.
Their voice is too rock-ish like wet and ____
(its like too serak basah if you know what I mean)

And okay fine Adam looked wayyy better yesterday and what not.
But but I still have a problem with him.
I just don't know what.
I know that I don't like it when he screams and like weirdly too high pitch-y for a guy.
(is he like gay?)
and and is it just me or is his face like too chubby.
Its not like fat or what.
He is kinda handsome/cute whatever but
its like his face is not chiseled? or like sharp and its like kinda babat-ish.

Haha I feel bad. I like him. But not enough to go gaga like David Cook.

But oooh I loved Matt,Kris and Anoop :D

I am waiting for all of them to like develop all their 'star' qualities.
but seriously I hope they don't get too caught up in stardom.
No one likes a stuck up person.
They should keep grounded.

And I'm still waiting for me to like Adam
Why?
Cause he is kinda cute/handsome and he's like 'IN'
but djfhsdhfdjlkss i wished he will eventually perform something I like.

Goodnight people.

2009-03-26T14:07:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I lack of sleep.
I still have not gone to the polyclinic.
dang.

I was reading Eclipse from 3 to 6++ am
trying to finish it.
When in fact I knew that the next night i.e tonight
I wont have any books to read.

jkdhfjdshfjgfkljdsglkdfs
Every time something I like in twilight series happens
I get pissed cause I wish I were Bella or something.
And I wished there were someone simillar to Edward
NO AMIRUL NOT ______!
hahahhaha.

And now I'm kinda pissed
cause I was awoken at 1140
by a call from NP
telling me that the French lesson are full.
Ugghhh I WANT TO TAKE THE BLOODY FRENCH CLASSES LAAAA
I'm so sad.
They asked me if I wanted to take a different class
but I said no.

cause I want to take french first.
fjsdfhjdsfhlsdjkflsd;
although there is Spanish,Korean,Japanese,Chinese.
BUT I WANT FRENCH!
:(

There is like no bread at home
which pissed me off some more.
(actually there is ah but I don't like the bontot part.
and its wholemeal! which doesn't really go well with nutella.)

Decided to watch reruns of Contender Asia on Axn.
Man I loved that show.
I remember when they were showing it on Axn
I always couldn't wait for the next challenge and fight.

Haha and the one that I watched today was the one that Dzabar
wanted to buy silicon cover for Ipod. HAHAHAHHA

P.s I'm still pissed

ooh maybe a sleepover at grams' today wouldn't hurt.
I'm so fcuking broke.

2009-03-26T02:03:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I think I just had one hell of a hilarious conversation with amirul.
Really.

Amizyo says:
ahlan widad

WidadThalib; says:
assalamualaikum

WidadThalib; says:
ahlan ya amirul

Amizyo says:
waalaikumsalam

Amizyo says:
haha

WidadThalib; says:
kef halik?

Amizyo says:
ermm si

Amizyo says:
mpk2

Amizyo says:
hahah whats that

WidadThalib; says:
HAHHAHHA

WidadThalib; says:
i asked how are you

Amizyo says:
halik good

WidadThalib; says:
your head halik good

Amizyo says:
hahahaha

Amizyo says:
pandai2

WidadThalib; says:
you say tayeeb ( good) or alhamdullilah

Amizyo says:
tayeeb

WidadThalib; says:
haha

Amizyo says:
have you decided what cca you want to join in poly?

WidadThalib; says:
nope

Amizyo says:
ohh

WidadThalib; says:
you?

Amizyo says:
either the cool club or thai appreciation group

WidadThalib; says:
ouh

WidadThalib; says:
that sounds interesting

Amizyo says:
mpk2 takda2

Amizyo says:
HAHA

WidadThalib; says:
*hahahhahahahhaha*

Amizyo says:
cool club lame sia

WidadThalib; says:
tu pasal
_________________
Amizyo says:
hows your lion doing ? *winks*

WidadThalib; says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAA

WidadThalib; says:
man please la

Amizyo says:
hahaha

WidadThalib; says:
dont spoil my perfect edward cullen image please

WidadThalib; says:
ugh

Amizyo says:
doesn't he have any chance of becoming yours?

Amizyo says:
just a little?

WidadThalib; says:
NO

Amizyo says:
hahahahaha

WidadThalib; says:
not at all

WidadThalib; says:
i know im harsh

Amizyo says:
because I am (Insert name here)

WidadThalib; says:
but he's just not the one for me

WidadThalib; says:
mpk seram sia

WidadThalib; says:
hahahahhahaa

Amizyo says:
well

Amizyo says:
what can i do to win your heart?

Amizyo says:
widad

WidadThalib; says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHA

Amizyo says:
just tell me,my love

Amizyo says:
or i will go offline and end this misery of a life without you

WidadThalib; says:
shut up la. later i laugh so hard then the whole house wake up siiool

Amizyo says:
fine

Amizyo says:
goodbye,darling of the stars

WidadThalib; says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA

WidadThalib; says:
omg your so crap
__________________
Amizyo says:
hahahah i dont know what to say if (Insert Name here) does that

WidadThalib; says:
hahhahaa

WidadThalib; says:
ill just like

WidadThalib; says:
give him this look

WidadThalib; says:
-.-

Amizyo says:
hahaha

WidadThalib; says:
so how are you and

Amizyo says:
he's such a hunk now sia

Amizyo says:
and who!?

WidadThalib; says:
*ahem ahem*

Amizyo says:
well

Amizyo says:
lets just say

WidadThalib; says:
you wanted to (do something) that time?

WidadThalib; says:
when you guys go (insert place)

Amizyo says:
hahah whenn?

WidadThalib; says:
eh eh

Amizyo says:
ya lah..

_______________
Amizyo says:
dunno ah

Amizyo says:
but she's cute ah

WidadThalib; says:
yeahhh she is

WidadThalib; says:
very

Amizyo says:
eh you havent tell me sia

Amizyo says:
who you like

WidadThalib; says:
i dont like anyone at the moment

Amizyo says:
sampedros

WidadThalib; says:
huh?

Amizyo says:
last crush?

Amizyo says:
haha nth

Amizyo says:
besides (insert name here) (except for the fact that i never liked this guy before. NEVER!)

WidadThalib; says:
and i never tell anyone who i like cept for my closest cousin

Amizyo says:
but i am your cousin sia!

WidadThalib; says:
mpk

WidadThalib; says:
ahhahhahhaa

Amizyo says:
fine!

Amizyo says:
lupa cousin!

Amizyo says:
hmmph!

Amizyo says:
menyampeh!

WidadThalib; says:
konar kaneh

Amizyo says:
eh i dont know why im so lame sia

Amizyo says:
hahahah

Amizyo says:
like ngantuk

WidadThalib; says:
cause its just pure natural talents

WidadThalib; says:
yeah me too a little

Amizyo says:
haha

_________________________________________________
So anyways, today I went to NP
for the software topup shit.
With Khai and his laptop lama giler sia.

Met with Mihah,Mya and Luthfi after that @ Orchard
No baem today.
Wah want to decide where to eat takes a bloody long time sia.
wallahi.

Okay then hung out at Mcafe at Shaw
played Identity game.
Hello Kitty! hahahhaha.

Then made our way back cept that us girls went back to kembs
to celebrate Aunty Adah's bday.
Watched reruns of Dont Forget the lyrics.

Back home.
This laptop is stupidly heavy
and Ngee Ann is stupidly far.

2009-03-20T00:39:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

so yeah I'm back!
I had fun.
The trip to Kl was awesome
we recorded videos singing to songs.
and soon enough we were sick of them (well at least I was)

I had bladder problems for the trip.
which was damn annoying.
cause i kept wanting to pee very so often.

First night dinner at Al-Rawsha
which will always be awesome.

Second day shopping at Jusco @ Aeon
then off to apartment seeking
then to Pavillion for Nando's (woohhooo shiiook)
off to Bukit Bintang where the shopping began.
Actually this is not true cause I bought 2 tops at Jusco
and one top at Nichii

All in all i bought 5 tops. heh. (omg i need to stop buying stuff)
and two shorts for like home/exercise from Petaling.
Its okay if its fake or whatever 2 for RM25 was worth it. ( I think)

Second day dinner @ Ulu Langat
always awesome :D
Its like this restaurant called Bread & Olive
located on top of like a really high hill/mountain
where it is overlooking the whole of KL.

Beautiful view.
Seriously.

With all the lovely jokes like "Hello what are you sinking about?"
hahhahahaha.
and We had hor
We had fun
We had hor fun in the sun
HAHAHAHH!

Okay I think its almost official that Kl is almost my second home. haha.

Third day did nothing and then back to Spore
where I saw Adila ( yay i got to hug her) at Pagoh I think.
Then home sweet home where everyone was at my place to
watch Don't Forget The Lyrics.

We were screaming most of the time.
heh. Excited what.

My sistels is so the beylo la.

P.s Syaz nothing to be jealoused about it was a short trip. Okay fine I know what you mean.
Pps. I'm uploading this from my new laptop. Just trying it out.
Ppps. I think Seacrest is wootsalicious.

See ya bitcheesssss

2009-03-17T11:02:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

Im going Kl.
Will be back by Thursday insyallah.
See you guys soon.

P.s Sorry people for canceling on you.

2009-03-17T00:56:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Fees are paid,
lappy is bought.

I went to NP alone. ( I sound so pathetic. I think I looked the part too!)
I was kinda pissed at first cause all the promoters went to those with parents with them
Arse holes.
The people at the booth were convincing me to get a different laptop
cause its lighter(1.9kg)
but I only had $1460
and it was only enough to buy the 2.5kg laptop

so I did.
I am kinda regretting it.
But yeah its okay I will have to deal with it.
I felt like crying man. (hah actually I did a little)

I found out that I would have to go back to NP to
let them install some stuff or something like that cause it was full.
AND IF I HAD KNOWN EARLIER..
I would have just bought the lighter laptop tomorrow.
but too late for regrets now.

so yeah got myself a Black L1010 Fujitsu

Going to NP with Khai tomorrow since he
also has to do that laptop thing.

If were lucky maybe we could still sign up for FOC.
I'm sleepy.
GooNights

2009-03-16T00:46:00.005+08:00

Dear Diary,

I can't wait to get my laptop.
cause my sister hogs on the computer all the time.

I'm praying it is not out of stock tomorrow.

Finished New Moon.
I think its not as fun as Twilight.

Maybe it's cause there's not a lot of Edward in it.
Although I wanted to cry at certain parts (what! im a girl)
But only like a tiny tear.

I read from 1pm-8++pm
Taking breaks for prayers and lunch.
Man good books are addictive.
Thank god for awesome authors :D

Okay I'm off now.
Should I start on Eclipse?
But I need a to wake up.
hmm. Maybe a chapter or two wouldn't hurt.

Adios amigos.

2009-03-12T00:45:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Okay American Idol talk now.

I don't see whats so special about Adam Lambert.
Really.
He shouts most of the time.
Well.. maybe I'm wrong. Let's see how he progresses if he gets through.
I'm trying so hard to like Adam but he's just not getting thru to me.

I like Alexis. I think she can sing.
She's like Christina Aguilera-ish and someone else...
but I haven figured that out.

And I don't really like Allison either.
Like okay she can sing.
But she's a tad too rock-ish for me.

Anooop! jdlhflsjhdfjsd.
I like him. I think he has great potential.
But mannn singing beat it was definately a wrong choice.
I'm pissed.

Danny to me is just too David Cook-ish.
I don't need another David cook.. I already have mine.
But he can sing la.
But but.. uggh I can't explain it.

Jasmine.. umm she can sing. A little boring.
Nothing much to say.

Jorge.. umm same case like jasmine.

AHHH!! Kris was awesome just now.
When he was performing.. I told my sister..
He's Jason Mraz-ish.
And that's what Randy said!

Lil Rounds. woot! Man that girl can sing.
really.

Ahhhh!! another awesome performance just now
was from Matt. LOVED IT!

Megan also same case like Jasmine and Jorge.

Michael. I like him. I know you think I'm weird.
But there's something bout him that makes you like him.
And he reminds me of my little cousin Aman.

Scott... He can sing..play the piano well..but
he's getting a little boring don't you think?

I wonder how America voted.
And its sad that 2 will be eliminated.

I think I'm having a really MAJOR crush on a 35 year old.
(what's new with Widad? always crushing)

Ryan John Seacrest has be looking so ahhhhh!
heheheheh (what an idiot giggling)
He makes watching Idol so much more fun.
And I love his radio shows.

Ahh but obviously this is not love.
Don't worry I have not forgotten my other "loves/crushes"

2009-03-11T16:23:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I feel so loved.
The other day at madrasah..
My ustaz told us this story.

This is how it goes :

Nabi Musa (Moses) asked god..
Why you have all the power and all..
Why you never make everyone in this world beriman (believe in you)?

Then god told Nabi Musa that there is a garden
with many beautiful flowers nearby (or something like that)
and god asked him to go to the garden and pick the flowers that he liked.

So after picking the flowers.. he showed them to god.
Then god asked him..
Why you only take those flowers?
Why you never take all the flowers in the garden?

Nabi Musa replied that he only picked the flowers that he liked.

So then god said
That goes the same for me.
I only pick those people whom I love..
to berIman towards me.

Whoa. After that I feel so loved.
I feel so damn lucky.
And yet I feel like as though I have disappointed god
cause I don't do all that he asks.
And I still do things that he does not allow.

And the only thing that god asks us is to beribadah.

Seriously sometimes I feel so setan!
Ugggghhhh.

Well I'm trying my best.
Im only human.

2009-03-10T00:26:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary,

I feel so the goddamn busy this week.

I need to get a bank loan for the fees.
I need to pay my school fees.
I need to do the course acceptance thing [14-17th march]
I need to complete all the giro shit forms [23rd march]

I need to go Sim Lim to compare prices of laptops with the ones offering in my school.
I need to go to the Suntec Electronic fair thingy to compare prices again.
I need to go buy a laptop and if I'm buying at school would be [14th-17th march]

I need to ask my dad if I can go for the NP freshman camp and the HMS camp.
I need to sign up for the camps if my dad allows asap cause its limited spaces.

I need to go to the polyclinic for the blood count tests.

I need to decide whether to join the Foreign Language Enhancement Programme.

Wahseyh, I feel like damn a lot.
This Thursday muskys outing, Saturday drama girls.

Today ended up hanging out with Mya (lawa),
Mihah(gorgeous *vomits*) and Ahmad(kueh) only
cause Luthfi(handsome *more like babi*) was sleeping -.-
so baem (handal) ended up not coming also.

Its okay there's next time. Haha but Kueh is going to NS! HAHAHAHHA.

Okay I hope I cross out a lot of the things I need to do.
And that's like only 1/8th of my things to do.

I think if I manage to wake up early tmr, I'll go to the bank with my mom...
and maybe to Sim Lim.
But I don't want to go alone. I scared : (

Its okay widad you shall be brave warrior!

P.s I still want that bloody ring.
I miss a lot of people.

2009-03-06T14:25:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I really really want the Lauren Conrad double finger name ring!
I really really want it. Obviously in my name la.

I'm gonna ask my mom.
I really want it!

( I know i sound brat-ish.. but Im not! I don't ask for rings/jewellery that often :P )

The hills is awesome la.
I think I hate Lo.

BYE!

2009-03-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Watch This :

Even though it was like 17 years ago..

Wow at 12 she can talk like that. ah-may-zing.
She deserves an AIWASAH! In a very dugul way of saying it.
hahahahaha.

I'm weird. I laugh at myself. I think its cause I feel dizzy and sleepy
but I don't think I can sleep just yet.

The facebook note hahahah !!!
Rachel said she would sing for me this : shi shang zhi you ma ma hao.
AHAHAHAHHA! the fernleaf milk song!
The one I used to sing for her and seet lei at the back.
Except that I sing it this way : She shang zhe yoo mama hao. Your mother haize ziang ge bao. Floating mama lalalaaaaa
(haha any Chinese person would be like WTF is this girl talking sia!?)

I miss them : (
I miss school.
I really miss school.

I'm scared and excited for new school.
I wish NP was 10 mins away from home like TP.
I wish I knew more people at NP.
I wish it would all turn out just fine. In fact fabulous!

That would be awesome.
Okay I'm off.
I miss a lot of people.

2009-03-05T18:54:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Yay! I watched American Idol just now.
And I think I'm happy.

I am happy that they chose Anoop, Ricky, Matt
as for the rest of the people who got the wildcard..
must see their performance again ah.

I really thought Anoop wouldn't be chosen sia!
And I screamed and clapped (hah semangat)
I think he really has got potential. Like diamond in the rough gitu. (cheyy macam paham)

Although I'm sad that Nathaniel , Ju'Not, Alex, Felicia, Kai didn't get through.

See I really think this season got a lot of good ones.

Okay 7pm Korean drama has started.

Later.

2009-03-05T00:24:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Just now was awesome.
Really.

Woke up at 930 and watched Ellen :D
O M G the construction was unbearable i tell you.
it was like right beside my house. they were like drilling the wall..
making a small hole. my kitchen was like shaking siaaaa.

k then gedebak gedebuk (haha) ..
went to Bedok (again!) to collect my picture..
sent Form E and then to the clinic for X-ray.

Met Mihah (gorgeous) and Mya (lawa) at BK Marina Square.
Off to starbugs.
Met Ahmad and Luthfi.

Then the chiz of the chizzles started ah!
They are damnnn funny.
A little later.. Ibraheim came

Seriously I had fun. And its really tiring laughing.
All the sarcasm.
AIWASAH!

Apparently boys take a seriously long time to decide on where to eat.
And Ibraheim's reason : Cause every time we follow the girls decision -.-
Then the debate between him and mihah started. haha.

hahaha bagedel siaa.

All in all.. I had an awesome time with all of them.
Okay its 3 and I'm sleepy.

P.s Don't you think this week's American Idol contestants like a lot have potential.
I think this season la. Really.

2009-03-04T01:10:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Swimming with the girls last Wednesday was a blast.
From the rain to the games to the talk and the swim itself.
But some mishaps? happened.
But I got to do my laps.
Have my fair share on the slides and to top it off
A rainbow.

Thursday evening was a sleepover at grams and
Parkway-ed the next day with sam.
Sunday was madrasah as usual.
Seriously I think the world is going to end real real soon.
And I feel damn scared.

I met Atiqah on just now. hee.
Went to SATA and saw a few other friends.
The queue was damnnnnn friggin long.
I waited outside for like 3hrs plus.
-.-

Off to a different clinic since my school listed the names and yadayada.
Mine was definately less than an hour. Haha
Took our photos. Me, Atitot and tots.
:D
and off to LJS, since someone was craving for it.
And back home.

damn it I really have a lot of things to say and type.
But i cant recall.
Uggh its okay next time then.

I dont know if its just me, but I find the enrolment thingy stressful.
Oh oh! after more than 2 wks waiting for the ad to come out again..
I finally recorded it just now while watching Batman Begins ( I was gatal wanted to watch again)
I WAS SO GODDAMN HAPPY!

Ciao.

2009-03-02T18:12:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

IM SCREWED!
I HAVE NOT DONE ANYTHING!

jfhgasfghalfhgklf

2009-02-23T15:07:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Early Saturday morning,
I woke up, got ready and made my way to Eunos.
Met Mihah and bus-ed down to East Coast.

Had BK for breakfast and then proceeded to renting a bike.
Woohoo we cycled to like almost the other side of east coast
I never knew there was a golf course or some sort of Safra resort there.

Took a break and talked and stuff.
Cycled back and bought water.
It was like the best drink I ever had.
It was so damn cold that after its in my stomach, I could still feel the coldness in my throat.

Sunday nothing much really happened.
Only that I was so goddamn tired.
I only had like 3 hrs or so of sleep and had class at 9.

Didn't manage to sleep after that.
It was those points where your just too awake to sleep.
Karaoke-d with my little cousins online.
We were basically shouting the songs.
Haha it was really funny. (obviously you don't find it funny but i do!)
Especially the song.. Every breath you take by the Police (if I'm not wrong)

I wanted to watch Unexpected Access
but TV in the living room was being used
and my dad didn't want to watch it.
He said he was disgusted.
Hahaha. dammnnn annoying.

By 11 at night.. I dozed off at the sofa
Woke up at 4 and went to bed.
Yay! Mothermoiselle bought me a pillow and bolster! :D

Uggh but I was woken up by her shouting asking where was
her white scarf. DAMMMNNN annoying.
So then I decided to watch the Oscars.

I didn't like Jessica Biel's dress.
Alicia Keys looked awesome.
Uggh John Legend is cute!
Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt gorgeous (as usual)
And I liked Jennifer Aniston's dress.
And omg la Ben Stiller doesn't want to be laughed at but he is sooo contradicting with the beard and all.

When Mickey Rourke was given a "speech" by the previous winners of the Leading Actor,
Robert Pattinson was sitting behind him.
And the shot was such that Mickey covered 3/4 of the screen while the other part was
Robert.
Obviously I was not looking at Mickey. Haha.

Hugh Jackman was a great host and the musical thingy performance
was cool.
Slumdog Millionaire won effin a lot of awards.
Dev looked cute but man I didn't like Freida's dress.
Okay enough bout Oscars.

Buhbye.

2009-02-20T21:08:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Man I feel so guilty.
I know what I did was wrong.
But it was something I knew I wont get carried away with.
Like to me its just that.

But I'm sorry I disappointed you.
I'll try my best to not do it again.
Once again,
I'm sorry.

2009-02-20T16:57:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary,

I had a weirdly interesting dream just now.
Okay it might sound cheesy, not interesting and what not.
But but okay i kinda dunno how i felt after the dream.

Okay here it goes...
Nick Lachey was like my boyfriend or something
okay i know its weird.
But he is him plus a little of edward cullen la
hahahahhahahahahaha. ( okay you might be wondering why i laugh but its.. like okay nvm)

Then it was in the morning at home and
somehow my "friends" were there also.
( friends were not exactly them. they were like i know its my friends but its not exactly my real life friends)

Then Nick said this to me " you look beautiful "
or something like that but for sure it was a compliment.
When in real fact.. I was looking very busuk
( not as in smelly but if you get me you will get me. I looked busuk. hahah some of you might be very confused now)

Then he liked pulled me then hugged me.
Then my mouth was like beside his ear.
And I said something in my heart.
Something like :
" Ya la you just want to show off to my friends that your a good boyfriend and all"
But I said it in my heart.
But somehow he could hear me. ( see this is why I think its like edward cullen-ish)
Then I looked at him and he like smiled and said "yeah".
As if he understood me. Like as if I had this power which connected me with him.
Like an unspoken thing. Like twins!

And I thought it was dammnnn cool.
But weird and freaky too.

Okay I totally have no idea why I just told this to the whole world.
Never mind for future references.

But I thought that it was weird for the fact that of all the guys in the world..
it was Nick Lachey. I don't even have a major crush on him or anything.
But I know that he is kind of sweet..
when watching the MTV show of him and Jessica Simpson when they were newlyweds.

Yeah okay end of story.
Im bored. I want to cycle!

2009-02-20T02:22:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Wooohoo I'm feeling better i guess.
Why you ask? Cause they bought the bloody thing :D
Hee. Okay its not really a good one. But it'll do.

Man I feel like cooking/baking. Nono. Both.
Really.
And ugghh I like this routine of mine that I have butbut
I think its unhealthy.

Like sleep damnnn late. Wake up damnnn late.
Eat. Tv. Comp. Sleep.

Whoa. Really unhealthy. Tsk.
Need to fit in other activities in there like :
Exercise,typing stuff that has been long overdue-d.

well okay I think I'll go off now.
I can pray and will definately be woken up for subuh.
Confirm plus chop man.

2009-02-19T16:58:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

Man I miss them already!?!?!
I'm hungry :(

2009-02-19T01:43:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

This was how the day went :
I woke up.. watched Jon and Kate Plus 8 :D
(their kids are annoyingly cute)
while eating two nutella spread-ed bread.

Did some stuff.. find clothes.. sweep the floor twice!
and lost track of the time. [This time I was starving]
rushed to marina to meet the girls.

Siiooll Garden and then to some place beside Arab st.

OKAY THIS IS WHEN I GET ANGRY

I went home early thinking that oh okay mom wants me to buy
the DVD recorder to tape the ad la before they don't show it anymore.
I went back early so that I could get to Best Denki before it closes.

FCUK. In the end didn't buy the bloody thing.
WHY!?! Out of budget. lLhfldhfsjldhgfsjldfhsa
Then you think what!? damn cheap ah?
If its cheap everyone buy whaaaatt.

Friggin pissed off [ being the baby that i am: cried and cursed on the way home]
WHY AM I PISSED?
Firstly, I could have spent a little more time with the girls especially when its full attendance.
Secondly, We didn't buy the bloody fcuker
Thirdly, I want that bloody fcuker
Fourthly, My family is flasj;dhflsjdhljfhsjldahfash ARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!

I am so not going to layan their faces if they ask to do whatever shit to tape imah's show.

I am also pissed cause i feel bad that i was bloody rude to my mom.
Man I feel sad yet I am angry.
My emotions come out all weird man.
AND NO I AM NOT PMS-SY! I just finished!

Ugghh I am sooo officially to the max broke.
Like zilch/nada/zero/kosong

I am soo staying at home or at my grandma's
UNLESS go out without spending a single shit on anything.
even on transport. [If possible]
Okay wait come to think of it.. it's not really possible.
Grandma's is at Kembs..
and if i go anywhere without transport would be what TM?

eewww.

okay I think I'm done complaining. I think.
Other than that I had fun with my girls :)

and I am sooo not a lesbian.
I said : If it was not against religion.. i would become a lesbian/bisexual
but since it is against religion..
so I'm not :D

Yeah yeah girls are hot. But guys are hotter :P
And yes I do dream of getting married to a MAN!
[Yes go study first. Don't gatal]

Okay I'm off.
psst go watch Benjamin Button la.
Its good :D
really.
and worth it to see Brad Pitt.
everyone scream!
wohhoooo!

oh oh!
I swear I will also be pissed if Facebook become
some mat and minah place like how friendster turned out to be.
wahhh really will be pissed.
BYE!

2009-02-18T02:24:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I received my enrolment package from NP!
I feel scared.
Yet I'm happy cause NP is using some e-learning shit and
I will need to get myself a laptop!
WOOOHHOOOO!!!

I didn't realise how expensive school fees are.
I feel so bad. Like I spend a lot already and ugghh
I know I shouldn't feel this way cause its for education which is good.

My I really hope that the fares will drop significantly.

I need to find the shortest , fastest and cheapest route from Tampines to NP.
KHAIRULL!!! Go with me okay!?
All the forms to be filled and submitted by required dates.
Man so many things to do.
I have not even properly cleared my school books and all.

Okay I really have to set my priorities right from now.
[Well talk is easy. Its whether you really do it or not]

Well maybe a job is not a good idea after all.
So its okay if i rot at home and always go out broke I guess.
Hopefully rezeki will fall on me soon.
:D

Man I really miss a lot of people. Really.

2009-02-17T01:28:00.007+08:00

Dear Diary,

"I was born under unusual circumstances"

watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
just now at the movies with my sister, cousins, aunt & uncle.

it was AWESOME!
really it was. although it was quite long.
But it was worth it. [hah i got my laling sistels to pay]
It was sad,funny, interesting
alaa just go watch la.

can Brad Pitt just get any hotter.
he is just sooo lkdjfovjsklnf hot.
wait wait he's not hot.
HE IS VERY VERY GOOD LOOKING. VERY HANDSOME.

he's face old and wrinkled also not bad sia.
why is it that life is so unfair.
why is it that handsome men like him do not exist in my life?
why? why?
why is it that gorgeous women like Angelina Jolie gets to be with gorgeous men like him
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

aljshdljasfhlusdgvolewnsdifew.
Its okay. Life's like that.

well, just catch the movie.
I feel like reading the book.

Goodnight world.

P.s blogger is annoying me.

2009-02-16T01:08:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

My weekend was plain boring.
I did basically nothing.

Well I mean what you expect me to do?
So yeah.

I'm not trying to be some ustazah or something..
but some ought to know the Islamic view on valentines day
[yes yes i kinda used to celebrate it. but it was just among friends and aahh I'm not perfect okay!]

Hence, commemorating that special day known as the Valentine's Day is an innovation or bid`ah that has no religious backing. Every innovation of that kind is rejected, as far as Islam is concerned. Islam requires all Muslims to love one another all over the whole year, and reducing the whole year to a single day is totally rejected.

http://www.islamonline.net/English/In_Depth/ShariahAndHumanity/articles/2008/02/01.shtml

so yeah. well its just an enlightenment i guess.
anyways.. I'm looking forward to meeting the girls this week.
and I'm hoping that my cousins and all watch Benjamin Button this week
[ SO not watching if my sis is not paying for me. hee]

O M G. ITS OUT! ITS OUT! THE AD IS OUT!
this is M A J O R!
I am soooooo forcing my dad to buy the DVD player like maybe this Friday!
I'm excited. hee jhgljhalhfgljvjsflgj;owir/

Wasn't just now (Sunday afternoon/night) like the hottest day ever?!?!?!
I was friggin perspiring like a mad cow. I even went to the extent of taking a cold shower
at 9 pm! ( oh damn I don't care if its not good for you future whatever shit)

THAT WAS HOW HOT IT WAS. FYI, I don't even perspire a lot!

Oh I just finished reading this book : Margarettown by Gabrielle Zevin.
It was a good yet weirdly interesting book.
But it was just weird. Or maybe I'm just dumb. ( i wont go for the latter)

hee. okay so its Monday morning. and I'm getting tired.
so.. adios.

P.s the kids were awfully noisy and annoying just now.

2009-02-13T00:59:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

First of all, my teeth hurt like mnflasjdhfjshdfk!!fljslhfsjdhfjhdhfhj
Get the picture?

Second of all, have i mentioned that I'm lfjhgsjhrugurgsofgjfjhhhhhh broke?
Hee. Like this is no joke. Please someone hire me!
Actually i don't mind not working and rotting at home
just that all the shops are calling me
and all the 'banks' [ie mother,father]
are rejecting me as a customer.
HAHAHAHAHHA

Thirdly AMERICAN IDOL
like HOW CAN THEY NOT PUT JAMAR IN THE TOP 36!?!?!!?!?
Did you hear him sing hey there Delilah? MY GOD that was awesome
better than the original version which was boring.

Okay here are my favourite so far :
Alex Wagner- Trugman
Anoop Desai
Danny Gokey
Kai Kalama
Matt Giraud [he looks like Justin.T right?! and his voice is awesome so far]
Michael Sarver
Natheniel Marshall
[I know what you're thinking like wth widad but his voice is nice really(if I'm not wrong ah) if you listen properly]
Nick Mitchell/Norman Gentle [hahahha he is annoying but seems interesting]
Scott Macintyre

It seems like they are all guys. but the girls they have not like captured my attention.
Except for TATIANA.
O M G she is the most annoying person ever.
Annoying laughter, everything cry, and her voice is not like WOW you know?

Yeah but all these ppl are like you have to see how they progress.
Some stand out later on.
Some change for the worst.
So yeah I'll definately keep track on Idol.

Coldplay is coming!!! Okay I'm not a huge die hard fan.. but i want to go!
:[ But i have no money.
uwaaaaaaaaaaa.
swear to god i hate this broke feeling.
really lflkdlfhlskdhfkdslkaf;hif2930mflkdjflz

Okay I'm off.

2009-02-11T03:53:00.001+08:00

Apparently , this boy here is my cu.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
I'm nek widad [wtf]

My cucu is like confused now.
Cause he doesn't know which course or school to go to.
I tell you that _ _ _ _ ing course is good for you.
Swear I'm not laughing.
You'll get a job like straight away.

:D

anyways, best of luck to you cu!
Hope you take the right path for your future.
No regrets!
Nek is always here to support you!
Send your children to my daycare centre okay!
[man i feel old!]

2009-02-10T02:25:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I think I'm going to bed sad
reasons are :

1st: I have been craving for double cheeseburger
but only after midnight. and i always don't get to satisfy my cravings :[

2nd : I'm effin broke. Like serious shit.

3rd: Fiqa has finished reading new moon and i haven even started :[
uwaaaaaaa.

4th:i just remembered about the shades on Sunday. stupid man. if your not selling it..
why put it there!!?!??!!?!?!? bladi hell betul.

5th: i just got my _you___ know___ what_ and my legs are cramping like nfashgkhsfhgsjfhgljfgl. my back hurts too!

6th: going shopping with Farah tomorrow means that i wont be buying anything. : [

7th: I'm out of things to hate and complain about.

Happy that I'm broke [ in a way] so i have no ways that i can waste money on.
**sidetrack : i have been keeping note on what i spend even on the smallest things
and i just realise i waste lots of money and this month alone its like only the 10th day
i have spent over $50. doesn't seem a lot but if you think bout it.. it is.
I have red nails.
I heard pastamania is halal :D
I'm going 'window' shopping tomorrow.

OH!
8th thing to be unhappy about: i miss my friends dearly.
9th: i have no valentines date.
hahhaa actually i don't bother cause i don't really celebrate it
and i have never had a valentines date.
i know i sound pathetic but do i look like i give a damn?
nooooooooooooooooo.

10th : ez-link cards are adult fair again! dang it.
11th: i still have not crossed out many things on my list.

okay i shall stop complaining. this is life. and it sucks. [not really actually]

i just realised i only go online in the whee hours of the morning.
reason is i too goddamn lazy to switch on the computer.
and I'm too busy watching Ellen then goong then my sassy girl...
hahahahaa. I'm such a bum.

i need to exercise.
i need to do my laps in the pool.
but first i need a swimming costume.
:}
[hahaha i just realised that smiley kinda looks like me cause i have a nose that can cut thru a medium rare steak or something]
and I DEARLY NEED A WATCH.
and a boyfriend.
NOT! [ on the last part not the watch part.]

woah I'm like on a roll here writing nongsense.
I need a haircut. thin my hair a little so i can shampoo with ease.

dahdah no more i needs. everything you need. you tell me what you don't need!?
you are so fortunate you know! and yet what you have your not satisfied.
whattt! i really need a haircut! and a watch! oh and shoes!

hahahhahaha
im like talking to myself.

okay goodnight/morning/afternoon.
pssstt! i miss you! :}

2009-02-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

OKAY THIS WILL KEEP YOU ENTERTAINED I HOPE!
DAMNNNN FUNNYY! GAY GILER.

2009-01-31T01:37:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Well early in the morning got a text
and I'm posted to Early Childhood Education @ NP.

I dunno what to feel like happy or not.
Its like I don't mind it but I'm just afraid.

Okay so after the whole day of thinking
this is the plan :

I'm not going to appeal to any kinda other courses.
Cause I'm scared that if I appeal like so many times..
then I get the course..
and I regret taking the course so its like a bloody waste of time
so I might as well not appeal.

And if I want to further my studies.. I can always continue
the childhood thingy or go into business or comm studies.
So yeah I think thats the plan.

Insyallah my future will be fine.

Another reason why I don't want to appeal is cause
after I submitted the jae form,
I prayed and said to god : Please put me in the course that will be best for me

So I'm guessing this course will be best for me.

Well the only thing is that NP is quite far and my family is like:
"kau damai lambat ape lagi NP. you know you have to leave an hour earlier right?"

Yeah well I guess I'm taking that risk.

I just want wish all of my other friends/acquaintances
the best of luck for your future endeavors.
And to those appealing too. But if you don't get into the course of your choice
maybe it was just not meant to be and deal with it. This is life.
May we all still stay in contact.

I'll end of with this (actually it has nothing to do with the post but never mind la) :

"For a lot of straight guys - and I
know I'm guilty of it sometimes - when
you know a gay guy has a crush on you,
it is the most flattering thing "

- Harry Potter star Daniel Radcliffe

Haha so cute eh? And I think I kinda agree.
ciao.

2009-01-30T02:59:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Tuesday's surprise celebration for kakak Soleha was fun.

Dear Soleha [or anyone else that this applies to],

I have no book to read for 5 days already. Do not make me
suffer please. I need to know what happens after 7 vampires
looks at her.

I'm so friggin bored that I go to the extent of googling myself at
3 am in the morning.
So now the whole world knows how desperate I am.

XOXO,
Widad Thalib, The desperate one.

HAHAHAH

Oh you should try it. Googling your name etc.
Ummm in a few hours I'll know which school/course
im posted to. Exciting yet scary.

Well getting sleepy.
Gooknight.

2009-01-27T02:45:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Hah I know my previous post was random
but that's me.

Omg just now I had one of those farts.
Goddammit I cannot tahan siolzxzxzxxzxz.
HAHAHAHAHAH

I AM DISGUSTING.

Well Friday was dot dot dot
and Saturday evening was spent with Jimmy
owed him brownies and ice cream and ended up having starfucks.

Got my headphones like at last.
Okay its not very comfortable but whateverrrr laa.

Sunday was like seriously had nothing to do.
But it was funny.
Forcing my ambers to read twilight but hah cannot ah.
I SHALL NOT END MY QUEST! (lol!?!)

Well Chinese New Year to all you ppl who actually celebrate it.
And the rest enjoy the loong holiday and for us students
the never ending holiday.

Spent today(yesterday?) rotting away as usual.
Man I still cannot get the feeling of the book out of my head.

I want a boyfriend who drives a silver Volvo and stares at me with golden eyes
and still doesn't move an inch off the road. UWAAAAAAA.

I hate myself cause that day I was soooo the god damn gatal
type new moon and accidentally read the summary of new moon.
Stopped half way when i realised and was jumping slapping myself
at 11 pm.

hah. Man this addiction?crush? has got to stop.

That time at the train when i still have not finished the book
thought i could read it la
then I read two pages and the third page first line was something like:
He smiled the crooked smile etcetc..
wah seyh. I smiled laaaa
wtf alone in the mrt smile smile.
HAHAHAH i had to close the book and resist reading.

Stupid book stupid edward stupid bella for going to forks
stupid stephanie meyer for even having the dream which made her write the book.

I LOVE YOU GUYS! [hah im toootally contradicting here as you can see]

Well happy belated birthday Sol! I miss you I love you.
You've had your satu hari satu malam with edward, brad and eric
now they're safely back at my place [not!]

haha okay i think i better stop now or ill continue crapping.
So yeah till next time.

2009-01-22T15:09:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

*warning random contents ahead*

I know the twilight fever is like over..
but I just started reading the book
and I'm not even finished and its damn good!!!
ljhfslfhgjlfhgfg

EDWARD CULLEN is soooo *ahhhhh*
hahhahhahahhaha

Man how I wish it was me he stroked his cold finger on jawline
or whatever it is.

kjfksjdfkjkdsjfkljklgfjhgf
I keep on smiling whenever I read the book.
Its like I'm excited over what!? nothing.
Bodoh betul.

Why is it that some people are just awesome writers?
Why is it that stories are rarely true?
Damn.

How I wish that there was a real Edward Cullen out there
Vamp or not.
*sigh*

Okay this is another random thing I want to say

Have you ever farted * yes i said fart you didn't read it wrong*
I'm sure all of you fart.
But have you ever farted such a smelly fart that you want to get away from yourself?

Hahah I have. And I'm not embarrassed to say it cause its human nature to fart.
Your not some Cullen to not fart.

Well sometimes it can get so stinky I want to run away from myself
to escape the smell.

Okay feeling a little embarrassed. Haha.

Yes told ya its random.
Well I'm off.
Later biatch.

2009-01-22T01:49:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Today I sinned.
I made my mother cry
and I didn't like it either.

The worst feeling/sight ever is to see your mother cry
especially knowing that you were the cause of her tears.

I'm sorry mommy.
Please don't cry anymore.

Well after this incident, I realise that I need change.
I need a new behavior hopefully for the better.

Well I'm going to try to : Be less Rude towards my elders
keep my comments that might hurt others to myself
Be more kind in actions and Speech.
Spend less money cause spending unnecessarily is also a sin
Do more good deeds
Listen and obey to elders cause i think they should know better

Well I dunno. Its just that maybe I am a good person.
But I hurt people a lot too.
Or maybe I'm really being pmssy and it will all go away as soon as the period comes.
Man i don't know.

____________________________________________________________________

Have you ever felt like your being ignored?
By your own friends and family?
And somehow it always ends up to be the same people.

I dunno if its me just being paranoid.. but i feel like I'm left out on things.
Well but its like it has happened more than once.
So maybe its not paranoia.

I don't need all eyes on me.
No I'm not seeking for attention.
But I'm seeking for attention just enough to be heard by someone
who actually cares.

Okay I still feel nothing and I hate it.

2009-01-21T01:04:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

I don't know what to feel,how i feel.
I just feel like an empty soul.
I need to go out alone and listen to the music,scream my heart out.
Yes, thats what I need.
Well I think I'm being pmssy. But I have not feel sad(yet).

Its like family and friends are there but they are not.
Or maybe Im not.
Like I'm not in tune/on the same wavelength with everyone else.

I just want to find fault with people,be angry at them.
And sometimes I end up hurting them and I apologize.
Yeah i really have a problem.
So I need some soul searching.

I feel kinda alone but yet people are still there.
I feel like I'm being left out on most things.
Its like I don't know some people anymore.
They're in my life and suddenly *poof* they're out. Then *poof* they're in again.
Man I don't need this kinda shit.
I need you to be here like constantly.

YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU AND YOU AND YOU TOO!

2009-01-19T00:36:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I'm not beautiful, but I'm handsome.

I was a handsome baby right? hee.
I miss blogging but I'm just soo not in the mood to blog.

2009-01-08T02:15:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I need to pee
I'm scared
I need to pee
I'm very scared
I'm super worried
But yet i still want to know my results
I'M VERY SCARED LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
:[[[[[[[[[[[[[

I think I'm going to cry
well i think i deserve it la
who ask you not to study properly?
huh?

but deep in my heart/soul whatever la i am really hoping that a miracle happens.
hoping that i get my $500
but i don't think its possible.

Whatever happens..
I'm going to be happy/sad whatever but i think i will accept it.

I will take life as it is. Welcome it with open arms.

On a different note.
Hair is medium ash brown
Sister is flying off in less than 24hrs :[

FOR 7 MONTHS OKAY!?
well she may be annoying etc but i feel like we got closer and such.
so yeahh will be sad

I told her if she change and like turns out to be like my bro i will slap her face left right.
i better get some sleep
going to tp open house [prob]

I miss my friends i need money and i want to have fun while it lasts

WAAAAAAAAAAA I'm scared.
who wants to give this scared little girl in this big big world a hug?
any takers?
[i sound so pathetic]

for those who wants proof on the results :

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/400799/1/.html

2009-01-03T23:43:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

My 31st started off slow.
Went to my grammys and met up with AMBERZXZXZXZ :D

time passed by realll slow. like really.
tried to make lyrics.
.........

It was 11 and we drove to the expressway.
2 cars, and we got lost.
but we turned to the side where we could see the fireworks.

Jam packed roads.
Radio was on and 25 seconds to the new year.
windows down
10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

HAPPY NEW YEAR shouting
cars honking
shouted to neighbours in other cars
smses started pourin in.

fireworks were awesome possome

when the cars finally started movin again..
every soul that passed by us on the bridge got
a new year scream from us "HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRR WOOOOOOOOO CHEEERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!![repeat again]"
one by one heads turned and they smiled
shouted back.

it was wicked.
went home and that was that.
but it was cool fun and funny.

New years day: woke up at 10 to make shabsuka
finished only at 1 ++.
met kods and dila at bedok
and we went to Botanical gardens.
it was wet. which sucked a little.

but the clouds cleared and one by one friends came
it was nice outing.

Friday
Bedtime stories/Picture taking
with kods and uzairah.

okay today stinks
hah went to a wedding which was
*dotsdotsdots*

went home and slept in front of the teevee.

I hope tmr turns out well.

2008-12-31T05:01:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

Okay so that was the picture story of 2008
hopefully 2009 will be a great year full
of pleasant surprises.

hope ill be more responsible when it comes to everything
learn more new stuff
make more new friends
gain a little weight
manymany more!

Looking foward to it!

Except im so damn scared of the future but always wanting to know
what it holds for me.
so yeahhh.

Forget the past live the present and anticipate the future!

Happy New Year to everyone!
Cheers to 2009!

2008-12-31T04:14:00.012+08:00

Dear Diary,

i lovee this picture!

KAKAK SOLEHA!!!!

Nurul;]

Khairulll!!

amirul my malay partner! monster! ahhhh!!

ZhiHong; Mr tan. hahaha

heehee

Fariz Buddy! My chatting buddy in the whee hours of the morning:D

Fuuuhh!!

I miss them but at least i saw faiz a few times unlike roshan who totally mia.

I miss this ass!

I miss this ass more !

Class of '08

KingKingKing!

MrsLoke!

Form Teacher: Mr Ho!

last day of papers!

Faiz's Chalet

SentosaHigh!

Hani's bday celebration!

Amirah's bday celebration!

Ijustrealisedhowfunnythispictureisandiloveit!

grp work! hahaha

P.E!

Atiqah's bday

Me and Taufiq; the handsomes'

Farah's Birthday

Dinie's Birthday!

*dotsdotsdots*

Paktengandme!

Widad and Cert Babi

widad's.

To act like you don't careWhen deep down you do.To know that that someone doesn't like you.You try to forget but you just can't seem to let go.Soon enough you will and you know.Cause time heals all wounds.

To act like you don't care
When deep down you do.
To know that that someone doesn't like you.
You try to forget but you just can't seem to let go.
Soon enough you will and you know.

Cause time heals all wounds.